I tried to change
Closed my mouth more
Tried to be softer, prettier
Less — awake

Fasted for 60 days
Wore white
Abstained for mirrors
Abstained from sex
Slowly did not speak another word

In that time, my hair, I grew past my ankles
I slept on a mat on the floor
I swallowed a sword
I levitated
Went to the basement
Confessed my sins and was baptized in a river
Got on my knees and said AMEN
And said I MEAN
I whipped my own back and asked for dominion at your feet
I threw myself into a volcano
I drank the blood and drank the wine
I sat alone in bed and bent at the waist for God
I crossed myself and thought...
I saw the devil
I grew thick in skin on my feet
I bathed in bleach and plugged my mensies with pages from the holy book
But still inside me coilled deep was the need to know...

¿Are you cheating on me?
¿Are you cheating on me?
¿Are you cheating on me?

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