The room's new carpet and the walls' apartment hue
Add to the visitor feeling I'm used to
The morning windows freezing from outside
Wakes me up

Losing air to the falling light
Angel, you picked me up, but the devil wants me too
I never gave a fuck, so why the fuck should you?

I awoke in a fog with an ache, at a loss
You were faking through relationships to rot
This is not my home anymore

All my accomplishments are joined with asterisks
So in a few years they're meaningless
Darling, I can't erase it, but could you forget my lies?
We were the slut and the self-made mess [1], please know I tried

Smile, smile
Smile for all
I can't smile
Anymore

Skip rocks to mock the crashing tide
It's encroaching on our side
The wave parade is drowning me out too
It breaks me up

Wish I could have done more to you
They used your body up, leaving your guts dry
But you never gave a fuck, so why the fuck should I?

Darling, I can't erase it, but could you forget my lies?
We were the slut and the self-made mess, please know I tried

Now the face escapes me
But the shame's forever

When I get the nerve to test the death for life renewal
You'll find me lying at the bottom of the pool [2] [3]

And when I'm face down in that water, don't pick me up
'Cause I'll be face down in that water next to you, don't pick me up
It will be better underwater, don't pick me up